Impatiently waiting
The flowers will begin to bloom
And my heart will start to shine
I’ll wait
Until every cell in my body is filled with fresh summer air
And my face is full of freckles
But I won’t be quiet about it
The world runs towards me faster than ever
An old friend running to give a hug
Or
An animal looking for its next meal
I can’t be sure
As this force moves towards me
My feet are planted unmoving
I’ll whisper under my breath “I guess I’ll enjoy it.”
In an armchair under fluorescent lights
I sit in anger, and gilt, and discomfort, and fear
Trying to train my brain that it’s all okay
My body is built to handle everything thrown my way
But she is a stubborn student
She doesn’t like to listen, doesn’t ask questions
She only reacts
I don’t think I can blame her
She wishes to run into the forest or
To never have left
A tree rooted in the ground unmoving
Not stuck but whole and content
She knows the world is not up to her
But she negotiates
If she can’t be a tree let her be a worm
Looking up at the greener grass